Last Post

I have decided to end this blog. In the past few months my entry's have been few and far between. With my last semester of school coming up and so many other things to prepare for- blogging is on the back burner.

I'm certain that when my passion and desire come back for writing, I will start again.

Enjoy the rest of 2009 :)

Now that there is time to breathe, there is time to write

Ok, so I am back at it again- writing. I have been reminded by my mom and sister that I am way behing on my blogging. I could list a lot of excuses as to why I have not been an avid blogger but I'll just leave it with I have been busy.

As for now, I am going to eat some dinner, get ready to go out tonight, and continue a more meaningful post tomorrow :)

Happy mom?

GRAD SCHOOL!!!

Whoa! I am excited about this new adventure. Let me unpack this before I explode. It's already halfway through my first semester of senior year. Up until about 2 weeks ago I thought I had this plan to go to Campbell's Divinity school and get my Masters in Urban and Christian Ministries- but I finally realized that I am not called into ministry. I was simply accepting this as my next step because to be honest it's an easy transition. When I started thinking about what I want to do with my life it didn't involve ministry, but rather something AND someplace completely different from Buies Creek, NC. If there is one thing I know about myself it's that I have a soft spot in my heart for people and local communities. I started researching things related to my passions and several things popped up, several things that I could see myself doing for many many years, as well as in many many places. Social Work, Non-Profit Organization, and Public Administration were all areas that are interconnected and very versatile- all things I am interested in pursuing in one way or another. I am applying to several schools and preparing for the GRE (which means I'm a little stressed about that). I'm hoping to have it all finished by February so that I can start in the fall of next year. Looking at Grad school through a different perspective has placed excitement in my very being because its what I really want.

This is a big step for me because it will be completely different from where I expected myself to be. I'm thrilled because its me moving into a direction of something(s) I WANT to do, not just things that are comfortable.

In the past few days I have been setting new, realistic goals for myself, not thinking about what others want me to do or what is conventionally expected of someone my age- but for me. Doing so reflects how independent I really am- which I like. Yep, so right now I'm getting through the last half of the semester and anticipating when I get to see my beautiful family again :)

Like the leaves, I am also changing.

As you may know by now I love fall! Something about this time of year is so refreshing to me or it could be that I am picking up a piece of my life that I left off last year. Or it could be that change is all around me, within me.

This time last year I was watching life happen like an awkward teenager who observes everyone dancing while they stand against the wall rather than be apart of all the commotion. I was in a relationship that allowed me to settle for mediocrity and "safety". I also made the decision this time last year to withdraw from Campbell (thankfully I am back) and move back home. But- this year is different in so many ways. As the weather and leaves are changing so am I. The changes I see happening are gradual and leave room for the growth that I deeply desire.

These changes that are happening? I would love to share them with you, however I cannot find the words to adequately describe them all and they are very personal to me.

On the flip side I am heading to VA tomorrow with Andrea for fall break (the semester is almost gone already) to do wedding stuff for her summer nuptials :) This makes me excited because we will be eating real food in a cozy house with a loving family. Hopefully I can post some pictures of all the dresses we try on and whatnot.

I'm excited about what is happening these days...

too long, much too long.

WOW. I have really fallen off the blogging wagon. I wish I could say it's because I am so so busy but that is just not the case. Believe me I have wanted to write several times on several different occasions but every time I sat down to do so my mind went completely blank. On this most recent try my mind seems to be functioning at full speed :)

My last post was 8-25-08 and I will NOT let a month go by before writing a little something. I just welcomed in my favorite season along with a host of others- FALL!!! Fall is my favorite for many reasons. Shall I list them? Indeed I shall :). I love fall because pumpkin spice lattes are now in season at coffee shops, I can finally wear boots and scarves on daily occurrences, the leaves change into beautiful colors before winter steals their glory, and my most beloved holiday is hosted during the autumn- thanksgiving of course!

Classes are in full swing and one thing for certain is that 8 courses is a tough load. For me it's mainly a lot of classes rather than the difficulty. Next semester will be about the same amount of class minus 8am's everyday. My easiest classes are the hardest ones to get up for. Why do they schedule an off campus bowling class at 8am!?!?!? Oh well, it's too late to complain now.

In two short weeks I will be heading to VA for fall break! YES fall breakkkkkkkk!!!! I will be with my dear friend Andrea, who is like a sister, picking out bridesmaids dresses for her May 2010 wedding. We are counting down the days until we can break free from campus dining and mundane classes.

There really is a lot that I want to write about but it would make for a long entry, perhaps next time.